I've laid it all down,
That i know what you're saying.
I understand now,
You make amends in your singing.
I've pulled you aside,
And I'm saying sorry even though I know that's not enough.
And I'm telling you how I'm nervous around you,
And approaching you at all has been so tough.
I've been circling around you telling me how hard you tried.
It's torn me apart knowing your words were breaking me and mine,
And every word you ever wrote,
We're sitting down now,
On some couches in your memory strong room.
I'm telling you how I never stopped,
Thinking everything was beautiful about you.
But I put up a front,
Purposefully pushed you far away from me.
So you didn't think that we'd ever be what you wanted to,
'Cause it would have fucked everything up to this day.
After all of the hurt so much positive came from this,
You were always so down on yourself,
Now you're stronger than I've ever been and ever will be,
And you're telling me you're okay.
I'll leave you alone now,
Since that's what you've wanted for so long.
But take with you my apology for never giving you the love you deserve.
You sound so wonderful standing up there,
And that hat you wear looks darling.
The lights hit you in such a magnificent way,
And I love you for what you gave me.
I hope you feel the same way about me.
I'm not asking you to love me anymore,
I'm not asking you to miss me anymore.
released July 21, 2015
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